Vague

my friends are kind of getting tired of my stories… even if they keep on listenin’ to me, i know they are.. it’s just that i keep on thinking of things that they think aren’t worthy of being thought.. but what can i do when all these things matter a lot to me? simple things.. simple acts.. simple thoughts.. such things often hurt me.. unconsciously, and perhaps unintentionally, they do.. i am emotional.. i am sensitive.. yes, i am… my closest friends for sure already know this… how i wish they are with me right now… how i wish they can be with me in times when i can’t take things anymore.. when i am about to cry.. but actually, when they’re around, i feel numb.. it’s not that i don’t feel anything.. but the rain doesn’t pour.. i dunno if i should be writing all of these stuff and post a blog here right now.. but there’s one big thing that keeps on buggin’ me a lot… and.. it’s just that i can’t make somebody do or stop doin’ things. sometimes, i even get tired of myself thinking of these things. it’s a feeling that you think u want to surrender and stop.. but u’re heart’s still beating and it tells u not to.. wanna know what these things are??!? love somebody!!!!! and u’ll understand me.